WORDS to live by

I intended to make this post at the beginning of the year.. to start the year off with  a fresh start, but as most of you know I have had some curve balls thrown my way this month. On one of the blogs I follow there was a list of words people had chosen, each person chosing just one. I couldnt pick just one so I picked a few words that really stand out and hope to incorporate them into my life.. I have narrowed it down to CONSERVE, MANAGE, SIMPLIFY and CHERISH.
CONSERVE- my negative thoughts about people, and situations that are out of my control. Be more conservative with our finances. Conserve my time, making room for the most important things first.

MANAGE- my time more wisely and my family activities fitting in more time for each other.. I hope that is possible with everyone going differerent directions all the time! Manage our finances and concentrate on NOT spending as much on frivolous things. I don't go on huge shopping sprees and expensive items frequently, but need tocut back and save more.. Going to be a challenge for sure!

SIMPLIFY- try to live a more simple life, cut back on unecessary things. Sorry but girl trips are NOT part of things I intend to cut out. They are a necessity so I can regroup and regain my sanity.  Clean out the cluter in my house. I want a very clean and simple house. Ok I may be asking too much in this area considering I live in a house with ALL boys..

CHERISH- very simply make the time, take the time to cherish those I love- family and friends, and the hobbies that I enjoy.

Life here on Earth is very brief and I want to make sure that I spend every moment making the best of it, CONSERVING and MANAGING my time more wisely, doing my best to live a more SIMPLE life and CHERISH each day that I wake up..

So what words or ways do you all hope to live by this year or things you may want to change??

HAPPY 11th BIRTHDAY RICKY!!

Hard to believe that 11yrs ago today I gave birth to Ricky. I remember moving to Puerto Rico and we had decided we were done having kids. Well Ricardo had decided that really. I sold all the baby furniture, clothes,etc.. Of course shortly after doing that I felt the urge to have another child. I begged for nearly six months (I think) for one last child. Finally, Ricardo caved in and what do you know?! I was pregnant right away. My delivery with him was smooth. He was such a good baby! You know it all goes downhill when they start walking and talking! Just kidding! He has definitely kept us on our toes these past 11yrs with his liveliness. Some things about our "little" man.. He loves to talk! He loves to sing and makes youtube videos doing so.. He loves babies and has always wished for a little sister.. Maybe he just doesn't enjoy being the "baby" He has tried all sports- soccer, football, baseball, basketball.. and acting. He is super loving, has mood swings (haha)-- especially during homework time, but always apologizes in the end for getting angry.. Gotta love him for that! He will tell you he loves you a hundred times a day- unlike the other two! That may change in a few years when he hits the teen years I am afraid! He has been a true blessing in our life! I love you Ricky! He'll always be my baby..

Rest In Peace.. Our Sweet Bella Renae..

Bella Renae Blehr, was born December 21, 2009 to my sister Maryann and brother in law Ryon. She lived just 22 days and fought until the very end to stay here with all her family who loved and adored her. Unfortunately, we lost her and she became God's Most Beautiful Angel on January 12, 2010. I feel so lost without this little girl, whom I was looking forward to spoiling in so many ways, from the girly time I would get to have with her, to taking her to NYC on shopping trips to American Girl, Toys R Us, and more! When my sister found out she was having a girl I was over the moon just picturing what she would look like, the fun years that were ahead of us with our Beautiful Bella. I really found myself emotionally attached to her before she was born. Unfortunately one day after Maryann gave birth, Bella developed some VERY serious complications. It was a blessing in some ways to have even had 22 days with her considering the numerous up and downs she had daily, hourly. I am now left to just see Bella in my dreams, as I have had lately. I see her soaring in the sky, in her beautiful cross lined gown, with short blond hair. She is so real in my dreams! Then.....I wake up on a wet pillow, after crying and realizing that she was ONLY in my dreams. The pain I feel doesn't compare to what my sister and Ryon are feeling after losing their firstborn. I just hope and pray that time will heal all of our broken hearts. We will NEVER forget this sweet child that came into our world and left us all too soon. Bella Renae will always be our Guardian Angel!

BORROWED ANGELS